i miss you

you know, you're not anywhere, but you're everywhere.
you're not at your locker at the end of the hall. i can't whack you with my water bottle on my way to mr. notidis's room. but the locker still sits there - empty - mocking me when i glance at it hopefully - pathetically - as i walk by to class.
you're not in the hallway on my way to the gym, always seeming to walk faster when you're behind me and slower when you're ahead. i can't wait for you at the gymnasium doors anymore. but the hallway is still there, whispering in my ear that it feels emptier than usual.
you're not on the playing field. you're not in the cafeteria. you're not in a classroom. you're not at school. but i look for you anyway, and, even though you're not there, i see you everywhere.
i just don't see you.

look, you can't just leave me here.

you promised.

and this rings true

"may came home with a smooth round stone
as small as a world and as large as alone"

write you the world

If I could write you the whole world -
my whole heart -
I would
I want to say something -
anything -
everything -
I want you to feel
what I feel
where you are


But mostly I miss you
I just want to see you -
I just want to hold you -
talk to you -
kiss you -
Mostly I love you
and I want to know you


I want you to know me
for all that we are.

ouch. - a nonfictional drabble of 100 words

today was the seniors' last real day of school. most of them won't be coming in for finals.
i'll miss them. i think i will cry.
it just doesn't seem fair that so many people who've been such a big part of my life can disappear in an instant, and take everything i've ever invested in them, everything i've ever valued about them, away with them when they leave.
i didn't realize this until just a little while ago, but i really love them.
i love them.
this hurts.
what's the point of loving someone you know is almost gone?

sing to me

i'm that star up in the sky i'm that mountain peak up high hey i made it mmm i'm the world's greatest i'm that little bit of hope when my back's against the ropes i can feel it mmm i'm the world's greatest

aftershock

tug at the zipper
(it's stuck)
(it gives)
miles of yellow satin
fall to the floor
the glamour
and sparkle
of one single evening
are lost in its folds

what i KNOW is
how i THINK is
what i FEEL is
how i ACT

well, i love you
so what do we do now
?