nicole

nicole told me to write a post. she said it's been a while.
i know she's right. i should just write.
but i can't.
you see, to me, to write is not just paper, words, and blogs.
it's pain. and joy. and love. and fear.
i feel my heart's been squished and pulled and almost torn apart.
i don't know who i am today, and writing's who i am.

so.

once i know which thoughts to think, which feels to feel, which God to trust;
once i know which loves to love, which time to take, which life to live;
once i know which truth is true -
i know You're there, Lord, save my soul -
maybe i can write again.

(please, God, let me write again...)